Burden

People ask me why I don't ask for help

One reason

I don't want to be a burden to someone else

Who may themselves be struggling

I live alone and will probably be alone when I leave this world

But at least I won't hurt someone else on my way out

I won't be a burden as I age

I won't need someone to care for me

Because my mind is a world of ups and downs

It can be hard for someone to be in my life

Like a vampire I suck the life out of them

With each tear or overly manic day

Could you imagine caring for me like that?

No.

And so, I fail to ask for help when I'm struggling

I can't break someone else's heart like I have done in the past

I can't make a promise I can't keep

Because that day may come when I cannot go on

And when that day comes 

I don't want to tear your world apart

With one act you couldn't have stopped

No matter what you say to me

I won't be your beast of burden

I can't swallow your soul that way