Angry at myself

Yes I am angry at myself

For pushing you away

For telling you that you don't matter to me

For not keeping my promise I warned you I couldn't keep

Yes I am angry at myself

For losing a good friend

For not being what you needed

For not trying harder to fight that urge to die

Yes I am angry at myself 

For trying to end my life

For not trying harder to care what you thought about me

For not doing what you wanted me to do

Yes I am angry at myself

For not raging at the dying of the light

For not fighting harder to win your trust again

For not earning the hand of friendship you offered me

Yes I am angry at myself

For ever thinking I could keep you around me

For ever thinking you cared enough no matter what

Yes I take some blame but what the hell do you feel now?

Anything?