Pain

I have a pain

They don't medication for

 

I have a pain

They don't have a therapy for

 

I have a pain

They don't have words to describe

 

I have a pain

They don't know how to heal

 

Because each time I look in a mirror

I can see it in my eyes

I can see it in the lines of my face

I can see it in my tears

I can hear it in my cries alone at night

 

Because some nights I wake to a tear soaked pillow

And cannot remember what I cried for

Other nights I can

And many of those nights bring about the pain

Those nights I relive memories again and again

Those nights I wish I never had another dream

Those nights I wish I never woke again

 

Because sometimes in those nights I serve in the Army again

Because some nights I love someone again

Because some nights I see someone I can never talk to ever again

Because some nights I wake up and immediately think aloud

 

"Why didn't you take me yet?  What the hell am I still breathing for?"