I wished

I wished...

I could give you back what I have taken from you so freely
I could return everything being with me cost you physically and emotionally
I could promise you I don't think about that anymore but I do almost everyday, even on the good one's
I could be enlightened enough to forgive myself for ever hurting you
I could be the "normal" person you needed me to be but then again I would not have likely been the moody artist you fell in love with
I could still be with you even though I know it's not good for either of us, you have moved on and are totally happy
I could breathe life into the good memories that made us laugh, giggle and smile when we were together
I could be the Dad you always need and deserved
I could be the husband and partner that makes you happy
I could do anything but cause you anymore pain

The only thing I can do is live my life to the best of my ability and try to keep from hurting you anymore

Oh and one more thing NEVER even physically follow through on the one thing that would hurt you for the rest of your life.