I know

I know what it feels like to live with guilt and shame
I know what it feels like to wish you weren't breathing
I know what it feels like to bear the weight of self-hate
I know what it feels like to surrender to that hate
I know what it feels like to feel the shame after failing
I know what it feels like to be shamed for even thinking about it
I know what it feels like to be told by family you are over it
I know what it feels like to wake up some days mad you woke up
I know what it feels like to have people treat you like you don't belong
I know what it feels like to be treated like you aren't one of the crowd
I know what it feels like to feel their pain when they put on a brave face
I know what it feels like to feel overwhelmed and engrossed in someone else's pain
I know what it feels like to wish you were blind and desensitized like the rest of the world
I know what it feels like to hope for the end of theirs and ultimately your pain
I know what it feels like to hear it is a gift not a curse
I know what it feels like to bear that gift
I know what it feels like to know
I know what it feels like to wait
I know what it feels like to be
I know what it feels like
I know what it feels
I know what
I know