Sunday, November 30, 2014

What I did and didn't mean to do to you



I didn’t mean to treat you that way
It’s not what I wanted to do
I needed to

Push you away before I hurt you
Push you away before I broke your heart
Push you away before I broke your shining light

I couldn’t bear to bring you into my darkness
Once the love of and light of you wore off
I knew it would return

Like a sore that just won’t heal
It festers deep inside till it opens again
Making me dark, in pain and trying to hide it from you

This is the point where I push you away
Only this way I am being mean
As you struggle to stay connected

I cannot feel your love anymore
Rather its’ like energy I cannot take in
It burns my spirit, my mind, my soul

Till I hate you for not leaving me
When I did what I had to do
When I did what you needed me to

When I pushed you away

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