Domestic Violence:Suffering in Silence

I wanna come apart

Bleed my secrets out

Make them false

Make them go away

But I can’t

The bruises are instilled in me

The scars won’t go away

Each time I look in the mirror they are still there

Just because you don’t see them don’t mean I don’t

I wanna tear my eyes out so I don’t see

I wanna rip my arms off and bleed out this pain

Maybe then I could find peace like so many others feel

I know it’s not going to happen

I know I’m supposed to think it’s true

The pain is just inside my head

And I thought I’d have a clue

But each day when I wake up

I seek out the pain free life

But when I look in the mirror

I see my secrets begging to be bled out again

Begging for release

And still I hide inside for fear of reprisals

What if I tell the truth?

What will happen then?
Who will take it out on me?

Will they scar me up again?

Will they bully me more?

If you have never been in my shoes I am thrilled for you

But if you have ever felt domestic violence or bullying

I feel your pain

I always try to hide

So I cannot feel it anymore too

I wish one day the world would stop it

But words are just words and acts aren’t measured that way

So everyday when I wake up

I wanna come apart

Bleed my secrets out

Make them false

Make them go away

But I can’t