Asking Why

It is an age old question

Why do all the ones that want, no deserve to live die and those who deserve to die keep on living?

Often an individual or even as a group asks this question if only silently

I know I have both silently and even questioning others for an answer

Some of us fear that we will live to a ripe old age with the issues that haunt us inside

Are we really destined to deal with the darkness, the mental breakdowns, and the nightmares with no reprieve?

Dare I, nay we ask for peace if only inside ourselves?

Is there such a thing as peace of mind?

Why do some people go through life publicly as if nothing is wrong?

Do they hide it, going home physically and emotionally drained everyday?

It’s hard enough for me to just hold it together in public as well as don’t actually do, than to wear the mask all the time anymore

That mask cuts into my skin, my soul, my being shoving me deeper into my walls, hiding the darkness till I am

Alone

That word can haunt us

Scare us to the core

For we know something others may not

That when we are alone, the darkness and demons come upon us harkening us to surrender to their will

Begging us to shed our souls, break our promises, end our suffering

And in that darkness you stare at the abyss wondering yet again…

Why do the ones who want, no deserve to live die and those who deserve to die go on living?