I delete myself

I delete myself with each interaction with people who clearly only want to use me for whatever reason

I delete myself with each moment I miss those I truly felt love from only to push them away

I delete my memory from the pain I caused, the pain I feel and the dreams I cannot let go

I delete my dark moments that haunt my very existence until I fall into them again in moments I cannot share for fear of repercussions

I delete the inner pain you cannot see most only see me trying desperately hiding within myself to avoid negative interactions that cut deep into me bleeding me dry

I delete the pain until the next time I falter into the darkness yet again reliving each painful moment yet again