Normal

I don't know what Normal feels like
I have never felt Normal in my life
I have never felt like I fit in
I have never felt what it's like to feel love
I have never felt the normal in Normal
I have never felt the familiar-ness of it
I have never felt anything but empty and hated 
I have never felt the love and kindness given to me
I have never felt anything but a hollow empty feeling

I guess that is my Normal
I guess that is my everything
I guess that is my world
I guess that is my pain
I guess that is my burden
I guess that is my abyss
I guess that is why I brand
I guess that is why I hate myself

I try to rid myself of the pain
I try to rid myself of my Normal
I try to rid myself of the memories
I try to rid myself of the heartaches
I try to rid myself of the feeling
I try to rid myself of everything

I don't know what Normal feels like
I don't know what holding you feels like
I don't know what loving you feels like
I don't know what caring for you feels like
I don't know what your Normal feels like
I don't know what you think of me feels like

I know you must hate me
I know you must loathe my very existence
I know you fear me
I know you wish I never met you
I know you wish I never cared for you
I know you wish you could forget me

I know what Normal is now
It's the pain
It's the sorrow
It's the darkness
It's the world around me
It's the possession of my life
It's the end of me