Failing my Band of Brothers

I did not see combat
I wasn’t there when
My brothers died.

I wasn’t there
To lay them
To rest.

Rather I was home
Trying to do what
Would honor them
The best.

I feel everyday
Through my tears
And pain
I failed.

I haven’t lived
A great life
At least
According
To me.

For my Band of Brothers
Are no longer here
To tell me what
They think of me.