I didn't dream of you

I didn’t dream of you last night.

My mind didn’t dream at all.

It was blank, nothing but darkness.

A peaceful feeling I have always wanted.

Longed for, as if nothing else mattered.

I know it seems selfish of me but I cannot help it.

This is what I need to survive and to this point.

I have failed you in every way possible.

These might be simple, small failures in themselves.

But, they are failures just the same.

A falter of my mind, means dreams will take my time.

Lead me from my focused path into a world, where my life and my dreams coincide.

Until my focus is gone yet again and I stare into the darkness hoping it stays for my sake.