My Inner Struggle

The roller coaster was winding down the tracks
Each twist and turn is a bashing inside my mind
Each flip is a bang against my sanity
With each up and down my body aches more
Each movement ruins one more life
Each tear cries another heartache
Each rant breaks another's love
Each war inside my mind was killing me

Can someone stop the train I want to get off
Each moment I am stuck on it breaks me more
Brings out the tears of pain and anguish
I have lived with for too long
The morose thoughts I express are to free me
From the pain, the tears, the rage it brings out in me

My mind is beating against the walls of the roller coaster
It won't let me out, it won't set me free
There are days my body and mind want to give up
There are moments I wish would never end
Those happy rides where people smile to see me
Those moments where I feel someone cares

Then there are the moments where people seem to hate me more
Those take over again and the ride continues on.

    - As previously published on Helium.com