Don't leave me

I will try to not beg of you
I can see you are ready to go
I notice the coldness of your words
I feel the coarse nature of your love
I sense your desire to walk away
I want to let go but my heart does not
I am fighting the desire to say the words
I know you do not want to hear
I choke as I find myself uttering them

As the door closes behind you
They fall on deaf ears as they should
It would not be fair for me to plead
You stayed longer than you dared
Their meaning hollow at this point
Their status just cold comfort
Said to make me feel more secure
Knowing you would curse me some way

I cry myself to sleep at night
To the words I did not mean to say
Don't leave me
For I ignored your love
And now I have to stay.