I'm sorry I'm Me.

I'm sorry. I wasn't a good father. I wasn't a good friend. I wasn't a good husband. I wasn't a good son, a good brother. I have failed you all so much. Today I want to join Kimmy and for that I'm sorry I'm not strong enough to keep that away from me, from you. I fell into the abyss and my darkened eyes keep opening to everything I didn't do for you, for me, for them.  I have let you all down and in each passing moment I feel empty inside, sober and afraid.  Afraid of you, afraid of me, afraid of hurting, afraid of being hurt by you, afraid of being hurt by me.  I don't want to die, I don't want to live with the pain, I don't want to live without music, I don't want to live without you.  But you are gone, I am lost a mess deep inside my thoughts all brought about by just being me.