Dragonlady

I bonded with you unintentionally
When I opened my emotional walls to you
I felt a focus I hadn’t felt in a really, really long time
It made it very hard to let you go like one other person in my lifetime

I know you fear me greatly as if I may harm you in some way
I hope someday you understand I would rather harm me than you
I blame me for everything I did that made you feel that way about me
I wish at times I had never met you ever in order to keep you and me safe

When the days you come into my mind I fear you
I fear the loss I feel from the emotional attachment we once had
Or rather I once had for you
For it is this attachment that broke my spirit

I feel less focused more everyday we don’t talk
And still I have to push on without you
A friend not long ago brought you up
And that person knew I would be hurt by the thought

The moment I started to speak of you
They could tell I had bonded with you
As I had with them so many years ago
Thankfully I never scared them off
But then again they didn’t help me focus like you did
You are and always will be a Dragonlady to me.