I catch myself

I catch myself falling

Failing, flailing looking for

Something steady

To keep myself from this misstep

It’s not failing the one’s I love or me

Rather, it’s just that a misstep

It can be hard to keep that in mind sometimes

As I struggle, writhe from the pains

I work to fight against the stream

To defy whatever it is that is bringing me downward

To fight against the darkness of the abyss

To work toward a new day, a peaceful life

It’s not easy to do but sometimes it needs to be done

To remind me that I am of course human

I will falter, take a misstep or two

Might even make major mistakes

They are not the end of the world

Merely bumps in the road I travel along

Nothing can stop me now

Even as I catch myself falling again.