The Reason for my tears

I can hardly put into words the reasons for my tears
The things I have witnessed through a small child's eyes
The pain and death, the loss of those I loved
The pain I felt from relatives whose losses were great
From the year I was born deaths at Christmas time
To this very day I am living
I have felt like a steady reminder
And could not let myself be happy
For the reasons for my tears are many
The reasons to smile at times few
Far between the teardrops
A smile might somehow break through.