I see it

I do see it, a blackened soul empty, left without a trace of life.

I see the fear in your eyes, a fear I might try to take your soul.

Like a heartless beast, an animal unafraid of ripping it from you.

A worthless vessel hell bent on taking it all from you.

Your soul, your breathe, you.

That look in my eye isn't of destruction but fear and longing of love and intimacy.

As with everyone else, deep inside I want love too.

Even though when it ends, it rapes my soul, tears at my flesh, consumes my being.

Takes my self-worth, my meaning to live.

Tears at my very fabric of who I am and what I believe.

I am an animal.
I am an ugly beast.
I am undeserving of love and affection.
A travesty of life.
An embodiment of the darker side of life.

A desecration of everything good and pure.

I believe what you see in me.