Don't be afraid

I am feeling blinded by the pain
The darkness is both a friend and an enemy
It protects me from things that make it worse
And causes sometimes only more and more pain.

I fear the outside people do not understand me
Nor do most care to.

I hate how that makes me feel
As I am emotionally drawn to some
And physically wishing others never came near.

I would give anything to make it stop
I would give anything to stop seeing everything
I would give anything for my world to stop
To make the chaos quit, to end making others
Feel afraid of me.

Afraid of what they think I am capable of doing to them
I would rather die than do what they are thinking me capable of.